My wall

It was a very hot day, I kind of felt like I was in a desert, the dirt was so dusty and dry but I was surrounded by trees, what a strange place I'd found myself in. I barely knew the people with me and yet they were all waiting for me to open myself up and be honest and vulnerable with them.
The question was "What is your wall? What is that thing that you come up against wherever you go?"
I didn't want to tell a bunch of people who I'd known a week that deep part of me, but I knew I had to.
"My wall," I answered "Is not giving up, I get so tired when things seem impossible that I just want to give up, so maybe endurance or perseverence?"
"How do you feel when you give up?" was the next question, sure, why not tell you all my inner thoughts, you'll find out eventually I'm sure.
"I find it easier to give up next time until I have no confidence in myself whatsoever."
Ok, moving on to the next person. Phew, I said it all, the spotlight was no longer on me.
Imediately I was second guessing myself, what if that wasn't my wall, what if I said the wrong thing, what if everyone was afraid I'd just bail on them when things got hard. Shooot, I could talk what-ifs until the world ends!
Later on I had completed the "Flying Squirrel" all we had to do was run and be lifted from the ground by a series of ropes and pulleys, not too hard, though going into it I was so afraid. But I was on top of the world, I was ready to take on ANYTHING! Or so I thought, that was before I was asked to take "Leap of Faith".
I looked up at the pole, it went up 50 feet in the air and I would have to climb all that way! Not only that but then I would have to get on top of it and jump to try and catch a trapeze which was way out of my reach! My stomach ached just looking at it, but nevertheless I began my climb.
I may have been 3 steps up when I thought "WHAT AM I DOING!? THIS IS SO CRAZY!" But I told myself to keep going, I was wearing a harness and my team mates held me up by a rope. I wouldn't die, even if I did fall!
I climbed on up and everything was shaking until I reached the top, I thought that the jump would be the hardest but it wasn't! Getting on top of the swaying pole was the hardest! It felt like I was frozen there for an eternity, but in reality it was only 5 minutes. Others called out encouragements but nothing would work, I couldn't get my legs to move, I couldn't let go of the pole with my hands, and standing seemed impossible! I only wanted to give up and climb back down the way I had come up, but no! That was my wall! I couldn't give up! Never!
Finally I was up and I wasn't even sure how it had happened, I had been whispering "Jesus" the entire time and now I was standing on the pole with my arms outstretched as if I was worshipping Him. But I was terrified, standing on a 50 foot swaying telephone pole. Now all I had to do was just jump!
I smiled as I heard my friends cheering me on and I counted in a shaky voice, "1, 2, 3." But nothing happened! I was supposed to be jumping but my legs wouldn't do it!
"You will not die!" I growled to myself "Help me Jesus!"
"Hey!" Called a student, "It's a happy day!" and they all burst into singing "Oh! Happy Day, Happy Day! You washed my sins away!"
I laughed as I remembered my encouraging them that morning to wake up and act like it really was a happy day, how courageous I'd been that morning as I'd leaped about and shouted "Come on! It's a happy day! Weren't you saved from a lot? Lets be literal here! Look happy when you sing Happy Day!"
Then I realized that I was standing with my arms outstretched and they were singing Happy Day and really, I was worshipping of top of that height, all I had to do was jump, just like I always did in worship!
I started singing along with them and then I jumped, overcoming my fear and my temptation to quit and placing all my trust in Jesus.
Why do I tell you this story, well, because I did it another girl decided that she would. And now I can't think of giving up because I didn't that once and something broke!
Do something you're afraid of today. Do it as worship to the Lord and others will be inspired to follow you.
I've not felt the same ever since I jumped, something changed, others have told me even by just looking at me that I'm different.
So this is to encourage you, just do it! Jump! It's a happy day! Conquer that wall, whatever it may be, and never, never, never give up!