Monday, January 10, 2011

when all else fails

Have you ever spent a day just failing? Waking late, taking someone else's shower time, not using a coaster, eating your breakfast in the living room, being late for your bus, making every mistake possible at work, and finally coming home just weary and dragged out. Sometimes I am so overwhelmed by my failures that I can't even stand to be me, and this was such a day.
As I left the house this morning a sinister voice whispered in my ear "call yourself a daughter!" and that was when the day was thrown into a reeling orbit of mistakes, as I watched everything I touch turn to dust I wondered what in the world it was all for.
Finally on my way home I was suffocating with the voices of condemnation and failure ringing in my ears, I felt my shoulders drooping and realized I was hanging my head in shame. In a last desperate attempt I picked up my ipod and pushed shuffle, praying that the first song would be what I needed. It wasn't, it didn't surprise me, nothing else had worked out this day, so why on earth should that?
When I got off the bus however something changed, some familiar fight kicked in as a silly song called "Who's Who" by Rick Pino came on. The lyrics of the song are as follows;
"Stick your tongue out like when you were a child
Stick your tongue out like when you were a child cause it's rainin'
Oh it's rainin!

Stop tryin' to be the next who's who,
and only try to be the next you!

He loves me like I am!
He loves me like I am!
He loves me like I am!
He loves me like I am!"

It keeps going after that but that was where my fight kicked in. It hit me that wether I'd made a million mistakes that day, or only one, He really does love me like I am, and I declared this at the top of my lungs. I yelled out these words in defiance at the mean voices that had been condemning me all day.
I realized that when all else fails, there is still love, "love never fails" 1 Cor 13.
He loves me like I am. That's really all that matters isn't it?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Ellie!!! You are NOT a failure! Everyone makes lots of mistakes every day... don't let yourself be defined by them... He is your true identity :)